The Mystery of the Missing Cat.

date: 25 Dec 2009
time: 1600
venue: River Place Condo, Tower A2, #09-XX

1. The doors of the rooms should be left open, yet they were all closed when we arrived.

2. Stale air. The apartment had a very very pungent smell.

3. There should be 2 cats in the house, yet there was only 1. A sinister-looking mat of a pop-up cat was found on the floor. It was said that the other cat always hides when it sees people. Yet nobody has ever seen that 2nd cat before.

4. There was an opened window in the kitchen.

5. Dead cockroaches and cat foods were found all over the kitchen.

6. The bowls of the water and cat foods were still filled to the brim.

7. The house was in a terrible mess, with the shoes and big soft toys lying around on the living room floor. Clothes were thrown around randomly on the beds of the rooms. Cosmetics and facial products were scattered on the dressing table. The disheveled state was as good as if the house had been ransacked.

The mystery will unravel on 30 Dec 2009 when Collin returns. Perhaps the Sherlock Holmes movie tomorrow will give me some ideas to solve the mystery first.

happie belated birthday to me.
merrie advanced xmas to me too. LOL

anyway, i think i'm so very broke this xmas. i mean not that there's $0 in my bank account left..but apparently, money is going out and not coming in. ok, not like it comes in on other months, but cash is definitely flowing out rapidly!!! OMG. then how?

i dun feel like going to the Sunway gathering tmr nite...another $25 :(
but i've promised them already...then how? can i cook up an excuse last min to excuse myself? its not very nice..maybe pple are looking forward to seeing me? HAHA I MUST BE IMAGINING THINGS. anyway...

lets trace back to the day after exams.

BLM's night out: Clubbing + K
24/05 Changing Appetites Dinner
Alien, ice-cream, lover gathering: Sushi + Neoprints + Shopping
CDC: Registration + Lessons + previous private driving lessons (THIS IS ZAMN EX!!!)
Interview with BLMs: Dinner
Hall application + Dinner & Arcade with Qifen

and i'm quite sure i missed out sth and there are still more to come...
OMG!!! I don't dare to sum up those receipts!!!

i wish money would drop from the sky. hahahaha

is the past still of any importance? when things happen, then things happen! if they don't, then they don't. but why is it that emotions always seem to contradict the way i think or the way i should be thinking?

i don't know, and i wish i knew. but its ok. if you don't know, then you don't know. there's no big deal. and i'm sure my thinking will overpower my feelings.

by the way, i think there's cafe world cheats. i read abt it, and i think it looked quite chim. i read it merely for the sake of knowing how pple can cheat and level up. but i think cheating spoils the fun. its just a game. there's no need to resort to cheat.

how much do you like to be scolded?
how much would you pay to be scolded?

ask me. today i got scolded practically for 1.5hours + 2hours non-stop. f*** the idiotic instructor. not that i'm gonna f*** him, i think he shd just f*** his stupid car.

its not me to be so vulgar. really. i think it's rare for me to scold vulgarities right smack of the fella's face. usually i do this behind pple's backs or i just use milder words. but i damn pissed. i think pple would think i'm a fool to pay $$ to get scolded. anyway, i dun think he had the right to.

Monday is test. does he not feel the stress, the anxiety in me? does he think that i'm an ATM..which refills the $$ automatically? does he think i enjoy failing?
its been proven. the more eager u wanna do sth right, the less likely u will do that thing right. 欲速則不達.. did he not come across this phrase before? how abt 皇帝不急太监急..if i really intend to fail, and i dun give a damn abt it, what right has he got to yell at me lidat?

I think i had been too calm today. I was so calm that I did not bother to rebut him, until the timely vehicle gave him a chance to nag and gave me a chance to scold.
tmr..i will send that complaint letter.

OK, i'm petty, i'm complain queen, i'm whatever you want to call me. cos at the end of the day, it still voices down to these 2 questions:

how much do you like to be scolded?
how much would you pay to be scolded?

The trip has been cancelled due to some internal problems in USAFA. The prof is disappointed. The partner is sad that all hopes are now gone. The writer of this post somehow, is more glad than anything else.

Perhaps the only thing worth being negative about is no more outlet shopping. but who cares? Its a way to save money too.

Pple are puzzled. "Did you not look forward to this trip?" "Weren't you happie that u're going US?"

To be frank, I had no feeling actually. I mean, sacrifices had to be made for me to go for the trip. It wasn't a win-win thing in the first place. Now that i'm staying, things go back to as planned, I get to spend time + CNY with my family, study the same modules as my frens, get a slack timetable..and enjoy whatever comes with staying in sg..why not? Why be so adamant abt what is no longer mine?

The only things worth worrying abt is my hall. Hopefully somehow, I would be able to move back.

and hopefully I can pass my driving test on Mon. LOL

i thot i wouldnt be sad when my roomie moves out. but i was wrong. the feeling last nite was just that when Qifen moved out 1 year ago. But maybe this time was less intense.

Tmr is my last paper. hip hip hooray. i look forward to the freedom after the exams. but i hate the driving lessons that are upcoming. there's a reason each time, why i need to pass the driving test. but there's many reasons each time too, as to why the examiner should fail me. sucks. i think i'm gonna fail again. i think this is one thing i encountered the most failures. the previous time probably was the beginners' swimming test where i only passed on my 2nd attempt. LOL

Also, i don't look forward to the overseas IA. I mean, i hate to part with my frens and family members. Yes, its only for 6months or so. But its almost a 200 days, 200x24hours... its a long time, there's no denial.

buzz...Buzz...BUZZ...Hear the sound of gossips!!! I know this sound best cos I'm a gossiper too.

I'm irritated at these 2 gossipers because they gossiped behind my back and in-front-of my sister.

Actually there was nothing to gossip about. And for a person with normal brain capacity, those trivial things that happened 1.5 mths ago should long be left behind somewhere.

But anyhow, i'm not sure if i ever gossip about someone 13 years later, it would be the same scene.
But anyhow, gossip only if its necessary. A reason such as jealousy is an excuse.

Exams are round the corner. The semester is ending.
Its a sad sad thing.

I've never appreciated uni life until this semester. Uni life is like that of a nomad. Moving from LTs to TRs; not taking a second look at who's around you, only focusing on whats on the board and in your mind. It has been lidat for the previous sems.

This sem is different. I felt the warmth in the freezing cold classroom. Perhaps its the smallness of the class that gave me the cosy feeling of family and unity.
All my years in NTU, i have never stayed back in school until 10plus pm, just to discuss school work with my schoolmates. Though not all of us were smart geeks, the presence was what mattered most. Though the topic was hard, surprisingly, i enjoyed myself and I felt that the time spent was so much more meaningful than taking a power nap.

I can't believe these pple have become part of my life, such that i felt sad being away next sem and not able to attend classes with them. I have never thought i would be so affected by my classmates. Perhaps, this is the 1st time in uni that I ever had a proper class.

As if that wasn't sad enough, the lyrics of Vitamin C-Graduation made it even worse. Will these big brothers and sisters still rmb me when they grad? Will they still rmb the jokes that we cracked and the fun we made of one another? Will they still rmb all the exact scenes in the wintery TR102, which we spent consecutive hours in it...

12.38am. someone's alarm clock just rang. LOL. just when i'm about to slp.

good time management was a compliment then. is it still applicable now? Have I always been so irresponsible and lazy, just that I didn't demonstrate until recently? Or is this a change in me or a form of addiction to TVB dramas and the various applications of Facebook?

I don't know if I find it hard to concentrate. I seemed to be in a daze all the while. Pretending to be busy cos I thought I am. But actually not quite. At the back of my mind, there is seemingly a lot of things I need to do. But on 2nd thought, those things..do I really need to do them now?

recess week. it came and left.

never-ending work. one after another. one togther with another.

i still manage to find time for Farmville, Pet Society and Restaurant City. well done to me. this is what i call good time management.

not to forget, my perfect dvd-dinner combination. it has made dinnertime the most enjoyable time of my entire day. But it has also made me almost obsolete in hall. it takes a lot to be called 宅女. do you then, have what it takes?

group assignments are things that pple usually enjoy. me too. but not when u have free-riders tagging along. i regret saying yes. when she asked if she could do the proj with me, i shd have just said no. afterall there are so many others who are doing it alone. and it is not as if i cant cope alone. why did i agree?!!

why did i agree to let her do the proj with me? asking the qn over and over again doesn seem to fetch me any answer. the thing is..is there a difference now that she's doing the proj with me? No. cos i'm still doing all the work and redo-ing all the work that she has done. i'm answering all the queries that she has..and she's typing down those words that i said into the report. in a condensed version somemore. when the ball is thrown to me, i'm the editor editing my work. this is downright dumb.

I am a perfectionist. or maybe she is the total opposite. when 2 extremes come together..thats the exact situation now. i appreciate the thot that she has..sometimes we say tt its the thot that counts..but when it comes to assignment, actions definitely speak louder than words!!

i am not saying that i'll be handing in an A-grade assignment..but i'm sure its wont be tt bad given the amount of effort i have put in. but what abt the free-rider?

i miss doing projects with ys. the mkting assignments, the HRM assignments, and the thyristor project. i admit i'm not always the one giving the most all the time, but i seriously did put in all my best in those assignments. just like the one i'm doing now. sigh...

I hate hall. YES!!! I'm saying this openly..I HATE NTU HALL5!!! It sucks. Read the email below. I know its long.

Dear successful applicants of Senior Hall Fellow discretionary list (AY09/10), It has been a great start to an exciting year! Hall 5 has come thus far with your contribution and participation. I am confident that we can go much further with your continued support.
Faking it.
The SHF list aims to promote hall activities. We believe that the successful applicants possess the initiative, talent and skills to continue with their contribution to hall. The various hall committees have started their recruitment drives.
This email was sent after their recruitment drives.

This is a reminder on the fulfillment of the contract terms in the SHF list for those who have overlooked the recruitment.
Below are the contract terms for successful applicants of the SHF list.Successful applicants will be subjected to fulfill 2 out of 3 requirements as follows:

i. Be a member and participate actively in any of the JCRC, Special Projects or Ad-Hoc Main Committees,
ii. Be a member and participate actively in a. JCRC subcommittee and b. One Special Project or Ad-Hoc subcommittees, or
iii. Participate in at least 3 sports or recreation games during the coming inter-hall games or at least 2 sports or recreation games with Cheerleading/Dance competition

Below are the available committees and activities which you can still join:
Dinner & Dance (Recruitment Drive : 15th & 16th September)
JCRC Sub-Committee (Recruitment Drive : 22nd & 23rd September)
Overseas Expedition Committee (Recruitment Date To be Confirmed)
Cheerleading
Colours Award Board Committee
Quintsical Production Sub Committee
Freshmen Orientation Camp Sub Committee
Inter Hall Games

Appropriate course of actions will be taken in the event that the contract is not fulfilled.
Yah, to get kicked out of hall. THIS I UNDSTD!
The Senior Hall Fellow, Hall Fellows and JCRC value your participation greatly and we look forward to the exciting prospect of working with you to push Hall 5 to greater heights!
The only way to be pushed to greater heights is to move next to SAO.

All sorts of shit. When you go down for the interviews, those big-headed pple tell u "Oh, there are a lot of potential members from the freshmen..so I hope you undstd."

I DONT UNDERSTAND!! Whats there to undstd? All i undstd is that, there they are telling you to join those comms, and there they are rejecting non-freshmen. WTF! QP, DnD. Look at this yr's JCRC. There's no one in there who's older than a yr2 student. And Chris had the cheek to ask me to join back as a Havoc programmer. To hell he goes.

I am angry..if you still cant tell from my tone. And i'm tired. All the fcking shit abt joining hall activities amidst so many other academic stuff. Now is not tt i dun wanna join. The fact is they only wanna freshmen!

The 4901 project is killing me. Working with a 'handicap' is not easy.
Same goes for next wk's quiz.
And I still have to be busy wif 2nd sis's wedding.
And the IA stuff leh?
And my stupid handphone which hasnt been behaving lately.
And I am very very tired.

We always talk abt choices..choices to eat what we like, do what we like, live what we like. But sometimes its not up to us to choose. It seems like the not-so-impt stuff havent been very successful and smooth-sailing since the start of school. Things were taking place at the speed of light while i was still happily in lala-land, painting rosy pictures of what things are going to be like. Well, since it has already happened, then what more can i do? I'm not left with a choice apparently, if you count accepting the facts or harping on them as an option.

I dun like the way things are "spinning" around me. It is an apt word, cos i get dizzy and confused as the things spin. And the feeling sucked big time.

Its just the beginning of the sem, and things are getting messy. Its up to me to get my mind set on my goals and be ignorant of the things happpening arnd me.

Whats been wrong with my browser..somehow it just doesn't display blogger correctly.

There are things that i dun say. Cos i dun think they are worth bringing up. But that doesn't mean they dun exist.

Pple say they undstd me in a way similar to pple judging books by covers. 99% of the time, those pple are right..but there's still that 1% probability that they may be wrong. I dun mean to keep things to myself, but how is it that pple can undstd how i feel when they're not in my predicament? Bullshit to the empathies and sympathies.

Being hurt time and again is as good as being stabbed at the same spot over and over again....the wound should not be touched cos just when u thot it has healed, it starts to bleed again. It may take eons to fully recover. Or maybe it wont recover at all? I don't know.

Until my heart is dead, the one holding the knife is never convicted for murder. To him, a mere word of "sorry" is his penalty for inflicting pain and injuries to others. But to me, he has gotten away scot-free....

Ion, anion, cation. What would you wear to one of the buzziest shopping malls in town?

"Please flush after use"
"Please do not litter"

These are 2 examples of the signs one can find in NTU campus. I can't help but wonder if such signs are meant to be insults to the intelligences of us - undergrads at least 19 of age. So we've all learned about demand and supply in Econs. And why is there a demand for such signs in the 1st place?

I was stuck in a $1-dilemma. Shd it be OCK curry puff, sotong onstik, chicken wing, buns from Q bread or mashed potato from 7-11? Would it be better to top another 50cents for a cup of honey green tea?

Conclusion: I'm a glutton.

school is starting in less than 12hrs time..one word to describe how i'm feeling...SIAN. this is wat i call the pre-school syndrome..even retail therapy fails to be an effective cure. perhaps t1, tmall and c sq are too boring for us le..but i think far places like far east wont be much better off either. i hate the feeling of going into shops and having nth to buy. i even hate the feeling of tiredness as we walk in and out of the malls for many many times cos we are too nua and forgetful. LOL

i saw gy on my way to meet GG1 just now. i spotted that hall tshirt from afar. but there was just insufficient time for me to do anything but to just walk past him, with our shoulders barely apart. i avoided his glare, but i'm not sure if he saw me. and i dun care. i dun undstd why i shd be avoiding him..but somehow, i've been so disgusted by his behaviour and attitude that it really made me stay away from him for the rest of my life. its just so sickening that there's a possibility that i might see him in hall.

as for tmr..or maybe a few hours later, i've got my notes printed, pencil case packed..and OH! my specs!!! yet to collect my keys and clean up my room and move in and blah blah blah. argh!!! i just wanna stay home!!!!!

Convocation is a ceremony, a formality. But it is one with the most dignity and meaning, cos it takes a lot for one to put on that blue gown. Looking at all the smiling faces of the graduates, i could really feel their joy and happiness within. 2 more years and I'll be like them. My parents would too be in the big audi to witness that very handshake with the dean which marks the official end to my academic life. Would I be happie to part with that lil' bit of happiness that i ever get in my school life? Parting with all the friendship made during the 3.5 years of study..parting with the excuse of not being a responsible adult..parting with all the fun i got in camps and hall life? Will i still be as happie as i thot i would be? It might be too early to say anything now, but one shd never estimates the speed at which time flies.

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Last night I joined the Reapers for dinner @ NY NY, thou I was too full for any food. LOL. Its funny to see how they settled that bill of 200+++ bucks. Nobody refused to pay 1st, cos they think that that is a lu-gi business. So there they sat for some 30mins, thinking of ways to collect the money. It was hard to split the bill cos there were pple who ordered just some side dishes, and some who ordered very heavy main courses. Nobody took the initiative to take out their wallet to pay for their own shares; instead they were chanting some stupid "thank you cheer", thanking imaginative pple who were going to treat them. I thot that was a sickening thing to do, even if it was just a form of joke. Cos it implied that they really had the intention of not paying for their own meals.
Horrible pple with horrible thinking!

After dinner, everyone adjourned to the roof terrace of Esplande to talk cock. I felt it was a lil bit of a wasting time, but i didnt voice my opinion. It was a torture to see and hear Kang Cai. I have nv seen such a BHB cum despo JERK. It angers me to hear his sickening voice. Cos apparently nth of the least bit of decency comes out of his big mouth. Thats when I decided to end my misery by going home early. Cos i knew if i dun, sth nasty might just come out of my mouth.
And I've decided that in future, its either him or me. If he's gonna turn up for any outing, then i'm not going-just like today's outing. Cos I dun fancy making myself unhappy.

Camp Insinyur ended. A camp filled with joy, laughter and tears. All I can say is that comparison is an evil tool..the more u compare, the harder it makes life. I wouldnt have shed those tears, if I hadn't taken things so seriously, if I hadn't compared Reaper with Gimli and Nova. Why..pple are all different..how can I ever expect Insinyur 09 to be the same as Insinyur 08 or 07? I felt so foolish when I was motivated by those pple whom I labelled as ungrateful and insensitve, to stay on instead of going home..it shouldnt be that way. Was that what people called Responsibility or Passion?

Now that camp is over..I have the exact same feelings I felt in me last year, to join back as a GL once again. I dun wanna make any rash decision..because I know there's a possibility I might regret..just like how I felt before I went for the camp a few days ago. But from the bottom of my heart, I really wish to be there again.

Though Terence and Colesty were not the best partners one could have, I am touched by what Terence did for me. I felt bad when he fell sick because he was taking care of me the entire night before.
I am glad that I made many new frens, including my self-declared SP.

Is there any basis for me to join back Insinyur again?

Insinyur camp le..sian. there're only 2 main reasons for hating camps:
1. no proper sleep or place to sleep.
2. to have to carry days of clothes and dirty clothes..and all other barang barangs.

After that will be hall camp. there's no way to getting out of that camp, unlike the coming one. and to make things worse, there's that stupid guy in hall camp. i hate it when he feels that he's still the CP and gives f-kingly irritating looks like "based-on-my-experience-i-think-this-is-right-and-hence-u-shd-listen-to-me" kinda look and "i'm-the-ex-CP-so-i'm-different-from-other-seniors" kinda look. Seriously, just those 2 looks ought to fetch himself lots of slaps and punches, curses and swears.

Egoistic men ruin pple's lives.

to curse and swear. of cos i have reasons to.

1.guoyuan has no intention of letting me go and letting me off. he even had the cheek to ask me out for a Harry Potter date. STOP DAYDREAMING.

2.camps are coming. sian..far far accommodation, no sleep, no nice bed, mozzies, stupid activites..what a waste of time. i think i will make myself stay away from camps in the coming year. they are too smart for a stupid person like me. or vice versa.

3.i may be a bridesmaid. BUT i'm not a maid.

4.my stupid driving.

5.and that stupid thyristor project.

YEAH!! 2nd sis and Kurt have returned from their 2-weeks Tuscany and Belgium trip and they have bought my favourite pastry/biscuit..whatever you call it. 3 boxes somemore! i felt so touched..cos she actually rmb what i like..and the fact is that pastry/biscuit is not commonly found in NTUC supermarkets, and its not very cheap..so I seldom buy it. Haha.

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Tuesday is my driving test. OMG! I think i'm likely to fail. Not that I have no confidence..but the thot of each and every single component in the circuit...I really cant see why I'm gonna get out of it alive.

The slope-that killer #1. Its so steep!!! the feeling is scary when you are just at that white line. I recall having a nightmare abt having to drive up an almost vertical slope. All thanks to the phobia that that stupid slope left on me.

The parallel parking-killer #2. Maybe it was due to my inability to do sit-n-reach..its not easy to turn ur body and look at the rear window and have ur hands controlling the steering wheel, have ur half-trembling left leg controlling the clutch and have ur right leg alternating b/w the brake and accelerator. And i hate to see the stupid poles behind sway and eventually fall onto the ground. Thou that didn't happen, its a fair game of luck. May good luck stay with me on the day of the test.

Kerbs-killer #3. The S-bend, the crank course, the 3-point turn, the parking..mount it and u are dead. The question is: where in the circuit do u not find kerbs?

Double white line-killer #4. Having died there the last time, there should be no reason for me to get bitten twice. But still it depends on the situation. There are double white lines on the road just outside CDC too.

With the 4 killers (and maybe more) lurking around, tell me, whats the probability of not meeting them all?

Whoever dares to tell me driving is easy..i might just strangle the person, cos I'm sure every single driver (newbie/experienced) would have gone thru the learning stage, the test stage, and the greenhorn stage. And it is impossible, i dare to say, IMPOSSIBLE for them not to feel stressed at all, at every single point in time, with the presence of these 3 tough stages. I'm sure GG1 would agree with me.

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Just a while ago, i met KS to pass him his notes and we chatted for an hour. The main point was, i didn't bring keys, so poor mum couldn't go and bathe cos she was afraid that I would come back anytime. So she actually waited for me for an hour! She could have showered and went to bed. I felt soOO guilty. and i think KS was tired too..but i was waiting for him to say that he need to go back since his mum called to ask where he was already. BUT HE DIDN'T! and he continued to carry on the conversation! haiz..it wasn't just my fault only leh..i hope he didn't get a scolding from his parents and if he did, i hope he didn't push the blame to me. BUT well, the mouth is his, he's entitled to say whatever he wants. But i'm very sure this would not happen very frequently. SORRY MUM!

how often do you find a fren who thinks and laugh in sync wif you and cant stand the same kinda people as you?

this morn i finally met up wif SH for bfast. nth fantastic abt a McDs Big Bfast..but it was the time spent that was meaningful. Everytime we meet, almost w/o fail, we meet at the same place, eat the same food, talk abt the same old stuff..and we laugh at those old stuff over and over again. why..its been so many years and when u recall ur old sec sch jokes..they are as funny as ever.

we went to cotton on - our must-go shop in the mall..and we stood in the middle of nowhere @ tamp1..chatting, gossiping, waiting to bump into pple we might know, laughing at people who log on to msn and leaves a personal msg/nick like "in a bad mood..dun talk to me"..and looking out for funny people such as people wif ADIDA or ADIDAAS shirts or a man in a green 'Ralph Lauren' tee walking back and forth right in front of us for 4 times.

its just so..like us..like what we used to do many many yrs ago. Haha. I look fwd to the next Bfast meeting..probably when Xmas nears :)

i love my 空虚 life! :)

staying at home is boring. but going out is tiring, esp when the weather is so sweltering. it rhymes huh! LOL. 空虚 was the exact term i used to describe my life to my mum when i was lazing arnd wif gou gou this aftn. haha. but isn't this just the ideal kinda life?

when sch/camp starts..i'm gonna miss the kinda life..when u wake up in the aftn, knowing that u have nth to do..no deadlines, no tutorials, no lect notes to revise, no quiz..just nth. u wake up to eat, to laze arnd doing nth, and to slp afterall (u cant slp if u havent woke up). u wake up basically for nth! Haha. and that was the exact stuff that i have been doing since my return, including some occasional driving lessons and meeting ups. but more or less, its lidat.

one fren asked if i'm gonna just rot the whole holiday..i'm proud to reply..why not?! how many long holidays have i got to rot? next may-jul i'd be doing IO..and the one after the next, i might be joining the hectic life of working already..i wanna treasure the rotting kinda life i lead now, cos i've been yearning for it and i bet i'll be pinning for it soon. hahahahah :D

anger..grr!!!

of cos i was! Today I met the pettiest guy on Earth and it seems like i had underestimated the power of a guy's pettiness. deep down inside when last nite, he insisted that i join him for today's lunch and dinner, i had foreseen there would be some probs wif the outing. i could tell from the way he spoke, the way he behaved..he was probably a rich spoiled brat. perhaps a mild case. but i was surprised..it was more than just being mild.

i'm not a rich man's daughter and it would probably make my day if i pick up 2 bucks on the floor.
whats wrong with a small room for 4 when it was meant for 4? i didn feel my comfort being compromised.
whats wrong with bringing your own water if it saves u the trouble and money of buying drinks? i'm sure many of my frens would love it.
whats wrong with 3 gals being close frens and asking another guy to go out tgther? i mean if u are the guy, u shd have known how close ur frens are. but if u dun, at the very least, u shd be gracious and gentlemen enuf to ignore those nitty gritty stuff right?
but there's sth wrong when a guy doesn't behave or act or pretend to be gracious and gentlemanly and to walk out on people just lidat!!!

i hate it when guys do things that contradict their age...just got rid of one, and there comes another one. perhaps its gotta do with his upbringing. and i cant fathom why the best people did not have the best characters. had they no money for the best education and upbringing huh? i've never been fed with the best rice using the best spoons..so i dun ask for the best. but i expect pple to have the very least bit of graciousness, and for goodness sake-self awareness. to be aware of your own self. i think there's more than just a lil' bit of resemblance b/w him and Albert. LOL.

pettiness is reserved for the ladies. the men dun get it. got it?

SOMEONE told me that Alicia Goh has 名正言顺 became Mrs Lim and is even pregnant with Junior Albert or Alicia. I was so shocked. And to think the duo were on such close terms with 4E2. Sucks! Albert is our form teacher and yet he treats some other class so much better than his form class. I mean of cos I dun gv a damn whether he invites us to his wedding or not..but why the bias? Just becos we didnt give him Teachers' Day present on time? Or just because we didnt do as well as 4E2 did? But i thot none of the best students came from that class?

JUST 1 WORD: 贱.

I'm so inspired to blog abt this after reading my fren's blog entry some time ago.

I totally agree with her. To guys whom we have no feeling, no nth towards..why waste our time? Sometimes not taking any extra steps would be a big step towards each other's friendship. I was suddenly reminded of Mr VJ. I was silly enough to agree to go out with him that one and only time..and that one and only killed any chance that he might have as a friend or anything beyond..because he was SO BOOORING! I cant stand boring guys. I don't wish to be reminded of what happened that day, but I'm sure we would have stayed as much better friends if he hadn't insisted of my meeting with him.

What's love actually? I might understand whats love between mother and daughter, sisters...but what abt the boy-gal kinda love? Must we keep thinking of the other party whole day long? Must we worry for that person? Must we always show care and concern for that person? I dunno..but if the answer is yes to the above 3 questions..then probably the person has taken the place of my family member. Well it does make some kinda sense..maybe if i'm lucky enuf, my bf will be my husband and a part of my family eventually. But why shd we think so far? Isnt it too far-fetched to regard a bf who is an outsider as your family member? Shdnt there be the thin line of boundary? I'm confused actually.

How can a relationship sustain for so long? I see couples who have been tgther for years..have they been thinking of each other for years too? Isn't that crazy? I have a friend who once told me..its a matter of getting used to each other. But one can never get the same first feelings that they had for each other right? As the months passed..if they have gotten used to each other..then where's the kinda "special feeling" that exists between couples that pple have always been talking abt? Double confusion.

But I've come to a conclusion. I am not suitable to get into a relationship as of now. Cos i cant fathom the true meaning of love. I think its silly for me to think of anyone else other than my family members for life. And I think its ridiculous to stay with that one person the whole day long..I need freedom. I don't see the need for me to account to an outsider for everything I do or for any outing I have with anyone. I think its quite redundant.

I don't care about love actually, if I have always been enjoying my life without having that kinda love. I mean so what if you're tgther with someone..SO WHAT???

Still, all these apply ONLY TO ME and its not meant to offend anyone at all.

I'm BACK!!!! Ok i admit..there's effectively nth much to be excited abt..cos I've been back almost for a week. ANYWAY, i hereby welcome myself to be back home. And I'm definitely glad i haven't got swined. it was so dangerous!!!

I have been slacking literally, but mentally shag. In a way, i have been torturing myself wif all the late nite dvds, but that's probably the only time in the entire day that I would be free. I'm constantly tired..tired at the wrong time..not falling asleep at the right time and falling asleep at the wrong time. Haha.

majority of the 24/05 gals met up today! its such a relief that we are still us..it seems like we haven't changed much. Karen is still as lame and pinky, Lynn still as chatty, Geraldine still as close to me and still looks as blur, Von still as cool and stylish, Lela still as cute...at the very instance, i felt as if I've returned to the days in the tj canteen, having lunch with the bunch of gals and crapping. LOL. I really hope that our friendship will be this everlasting and we'll always remain like before..i wonder what it will be like 10 years ltr..

Went to the Canon IXUS shooting course prior to Karen's treat. Ha! I felt the course was..erm..they should have called it a course for the noobs. LOL. Why..there were aunties who lagged behind, who haven't taken their just-bought cameras out of their boxes, hence with no memory card and uncharged batteries..aunties who almost didn't know how to turn on their cameras and to delete their photos..oh well, if they had known everything, why would they be here right..BUT if they had known nothing, how did they manage to purchase such good cameras? A paradox isn't it. Everything was memorable and I've enjoyed taking the course with my sister..cos half the time, we were entertaining ourselves with all the jokes that we have created out of nth. The whole course was just so hilarious! Haha.

Greetings from Berlin!

I wanted to put sth up when I was in estonia and Latvia, but I was too tired to do anything beyond simple facebooking and checking of email. Traveling is fun, but its equally tiring. Especially with the heavy luggage..And so, I've decided that the last sentence that I would ever like to hear is "since you like traveling so much....."

i'm so very irritated with that big suitcase of mine..it weighed 7kg even w/o putting anything in. Tts so unfairly heavy. And I hate ryanair. I really regret booking that stupid airlines, because there were so many restrictions involved. And after all the taxes and additional charges, the airfare didnt seem as budget as it should be. I'm counting down to the day of the last Ryanair flight.

To think I still have 25kg of luggage with me (including the 7kg weight of the suitcase) after sending back home 9.4kg of stuff in Finland and 9.66kg in Tallinn. I wonder why there seemed to be more stuff now than that I came with. Hmm...
The 2 metropol(e) hotels were fine, and the apartment that I'm staying in now, is great too. I hope there are more good accommodations to come.

I didnt know Latvia and Estonia were part of Russia last time, and I'm so fascinated by the Russian Dolls that were sold in the souvenir shops. I was really so tempted to buy them, but I thot we already have 2 sets at home. They were more expensive than those sold in Russia anyway.

I have many many photos, but I'm so lazy to upload them to facebook. and I'm too tired as well. Its gonna be a long day tmr, so.....zzzz.....

i feel as if i'm standing at a cross-road junction, with the Merlion on the left and Statue of Liberty on the right. I know they can't be compared..but the analogy is significant and apt.

its always easy to make decisions for others..but not for yourself.

time time time..if a day consists of only 6hours..how fast time would pass wouldn't it? i hope not to get a favourable reply from them..so that the decision would be made FOR me.

argh..i still cant get over the fact that one can have a wishlist of 20 over items for her bday. so what if its your 21st bday? that doesnt mean u really expect to receive 21 bday prezzies right! i really wonder..if you've got so many things that u want, why dun u buy them urself? its rude to ask pple for gifts, isnt it? and its even ruder to be selfish..to ask a skinnier person to wake up at 5am to jog long dist wif you just becos u wanna lose weight..i think my fren would kill me if i were to do that. in the 1st place, i wont be waking up at 5am. i think that is probably the time i just went to bed.

now i understood why pple refrained from using the umbrella even thou its raining. my umbrella almost flew away this aftn! my goodness..the wind was so strong!!! i was holding on to it real tight and i could feel that my dear umbrella was on the verge of either flying away or breaking. but i was holding on to papers on my hand and i didnt wanna put them in my bag cos its such a big stack (of rough paper. haha)..if not i;d have done without my brolly. argh.

just now i created a facebook quiz of 8 qns. ys got 100%, qifen got 75% and grace got a pathetic 37%. LOL. and if u think 37% is bad, wait til you score 25%. and thatw as exactly wat i did in grace's quiz. hahaha. i had my revenge. i realised that there are so many hundreds of things that I could have asked..but somehow i had difficulty coming up with the mere 8 qns. hahaha.

andrea tried to bake apple pie w/o a mixer for the 2nd time. and this time round, she broke the big wooden mixing spoon. LOL. such violence. she said she'd be cooking on 13th may night..and asked if i'd be joining. i'd like to..but i have a stupid nightmare paper the next morning..but i still promised to join anyway. argh..that nightmare..the horribly horrible nightmare..i hate all those E fields B fields..whatever field..even the school soccer/rugby fields sucked!! so muddy and dirty !@#$%^&!!! hahaha.

last night, i was so very bored from mugging, i started to plan what i'd be doing in the years to come. haha. how interesting. i wanna be an air stewardess by the age of 26, and be the front desk officer of any big hotel at the age of 31 (if they still want me, and i'm not too old for that) and after that, i wanna be a teacher for the rest of my life. i guess experiencing 4 kinds of jobs is enuf..what more can i be? an engineer? err..most probably not. i'd rather be a waitress than an engineer. working with people is always better than working with WORK. if SIA doesn't want me, then i'll join tiger airways or any budget airline that wants me. If Ritz Carlton doesnt hire me, Holiday Inn is still better than nth (BUT NOT HOTEL81). haha.
if only things can go according to plan, then i'd be quite contented.

that email that i received. it was a moment of joy and a period of ponder. there are so many issues to consider, but yet its such a good opportunity. but am i not tired of living away from my loved ones? hmm...anyway nothing's confirmed. i dun even have the least bit of details as to whats going on. so just have to be patient...

i have just finished the last of Heart of Greed-Moonlight Resonance. Tonight i shall embark on the journey in search for the long lost Return of the Pearl Princess. Somehow the title sounds a bit weird to me. Correct me if I've made a mistake.

That day when i was on the bus, i saw this mother with her 2 sons.somehow it got me thinking what it would be like if I have a much much younger sister. I would probably bring her out very often, to Ks, to the malls, to eat and ｔｏ　fetch her back and forth from school. I wonder if she'd want to tag along with me to my gathering with frens..i'm sure my frens wont mind if i bring my sister along. Ｔhey would welcome her, i guess. Last time I didnt really tag along when my sisters went out. They didn't offer to bring me out very often when i was in Primary School..i think my fingers and toes are enough for me to count with. I only rmb going out with my mum most of the time. WHY　ＳＩＡ！！！　Ｉ　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ｃａｎ　ｒｍｂ　ｏｎｃｅ　ｉｎ　Ｐ５　ｗｈｅｎ　ｍｙ　１ｓｔ　ｓｉｓ　ａｎｄ　ｂｒｏ－ｉｎ－ｌａｗ　ｃａｍｅ　ｔｏ　ｆｅｔｃｈ　ｍｙ　ａｆｔｅｒ　ｓｃｈｏｏｌ　ｂｅｃｕａｓｅ　ｍｕｍ　ｗａｓ　ｂｕｓｙ　ｐｒｅｐａｒｉｎｇ　ｄｉｎｎｅｒ．　Ｏｒ　ｍａｙｂｅ　ｂｅｃａｕｓｅ　ｔｈｅｙ　ｈａｖｅ　ｔｏ　ｗｏｒｋ　ｓｏ　ｔｈｅｙ　ｄｉｄｎｔ　ｆｅｔｃｈ　ｍｅ？　Ｉ　ｃａｎ＇ｔ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｒｍｂ，　ｂｕｔ　ｉ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ｔｔ　ｓｏｕｎｄｓ　ｌｏｇｉｃａｌ．　ＬＯＬ．

Ｔｈｅ　ｓｋｙ　ｉｎ　Ｆｉｎｌａｎｄ　ｉｓ　ＳＯ　ａｍａｚｉｎｇｌｙ　ｆｕｎｎｙ！　Ｌａｓｔ　ｎｉｇｈｔ　ｉ　ｓｌｅｐｔ　ａｔ　３．３０ａｍ，　ａｎｄ　ｔｈｅ　ｓｋｙ　ｗａｓ　ａｓ　ｂｒｉｇｈｔ　ａｓ　ｔｈａｔ　ｉｎ　Ｓｉｎｇａｐｏｒｅ，　ａｔ　６．３０ａｍ．　ＬＯＬ．　Ｉｔ　ｓｅｅｍｅｄ　ａｓ　ｉｆ　ｉ　ｓｌｅｅｐ　ｗｈｅｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｄａｗｎ　ｉｓ　ｂｒｅａｋｉｎｇ　ａｎｄ　ｉ　ｗａｋｅ　ｕｐ　ｗｈｅｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｄａｗｎ　ｈａｓ　ｂｒｏｋｅｎ．　Ｂｕｔ　ｉｔ　ｄｉｄｎｔ　ｏｃｃｕｒ　ｔｏ　ｍｅ　ｔｈａｔ　ｔｈｅ　ｓｋｙ　ｈａｓ　ｄａｒｋｅｎｅｄ　ａｔ　ａｌｌ　ｌａｓｔ　ｎｉｇｈｔ．　Ｍａｙｂｅ　Ｉ　ｗａｓ　ｔｏｏ　ｅｎｇｒｏｓｓｅｄ　ｓｕｒｆｉｎｇ　ｔｈｅ　ｎｅｔ．．ｂｕｔ　ｓｕｂｃｏｎｓｃｉｏｕｓｌｙ，　ｉ　ｋｅｐｔ　ｈａｖｉｎｇ　ｔｈｅ　ｉｍｐｒｅｓｓｉｏｎ　ｔｈａｔ　ｔｈｅ　ｓｕｎ　ｈａｓｎｔ　ｓｅｔ　ｙｅｔ　ｔｈｅｎ．　Ａｎｙｗａｙ，　Ｉ　ｈａｄ　ｔｏ　ｐｕｌｌ　ｄｏｗｎ　ｍｙ　ｈａｌｆ－ｆａｕｌｔｙ　ｂｌｉｎｄｓ　ｉｎ　ｏｒｄｅｒ　ｔｏ　ｆａｌｌ　ａｓｌｅｅｐ．

Ｉ　ｈａｖｅｎｔ　ｂｅｅｎ　ｓｌｅｅｐｉｎｇ　ｗｅｌｌ　ｌａｔｅｌｙ，　ｅｖｅｎ　ｔｈｏｕ　ｉ　ｋｎｅｗ　Ｉ　ｓｈｏｕｌｄ　ｂｅ　ｃｏｓ　ｉ＇ｍ　ｔｉｒｅｄ．　Ｍａｙｂｅ　ｉｔ　ｗａｓ　ｐａｒｔｌｙ　ｍｙ　ｏｗｎ　ｆａｕｌｔ．．ｆｏｒ　ｇｅｔｔｉｎｇ　ｉｎｔｏ　ｄｅｅｐ　ｔｈｏｕｇｈｔｓ　ｂｅｆｏｒｅ　ｉ　ｇｏ　ｔｏ　ｂｅｄ．　Ｏｒ　ｍａｙｂｅ　Ｉ　ｓｌｅｐｔ　ｔｏｏ　ｍｕｃｈ．　Ｈａｈａ．　Ｔｏｏ　ｂａｄ．　Ａｎｄ　ｔｈｅ　ｃｉｄｅｒｓ　ｄｉｄｎｔ　ｗｏｒｋ．　Ｗｈａｔ　ｄｉｄｎｔ　ｔｈｅ　４．７％　ａｌｃｏｈｏｌ　ｗｏｒｋ？　ＺＺＺ．　Ｏｈ　ｗｅｌｌ　～

Ｉ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ｉｔｓ　ｄｒｉｚｚｌｉｎｇ　ｎｏｗ，　ａｎｄｔｈｅ　ｗｉｎｄ　ｉｓ　ｓｔｒｏｎｇ．．ｂｕｔ　ｉ　ｄｕｎ　ｓｅｅ　ｐｅｏｐｌｅ　ｃａｒｒｙｉｎｇ　ｔｈｅｉｒ　ｂｒｏｌｌｙｓ．．ｍａｙｂｅ　ｔｈｅｙ＇ｒｅ　ａｆｒａｉｄ　ｔｈａｔ　ｔｈｅｉｒ　ｕｍｂｒｅｌｌａｓ　ｃｏｕｌｄｎｔ　ｗｉｔｈｓｔａｎｄ　ｔｈｅ　ｓｔｒｏｎｇ　ｗｉｎｄ．　Ｈａｈａ．　Ｔｈｅ　ｗｈｏｌｅ　ｓｃｅｎｅ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｒｅｍｉｎｄｓ　ｍｅ　ｏｆ　ｔｈｅ　ｄａｙｓ　ｉｎ　Ｒｏｍｅ．　Ｔｈｏｓｅ　ｇｏｏｄ　ｏ＇ｒａｉｎｙ　ｄａｙｓ．　Ｈａｈａ．　Ｉ　ｗｏｕｌｄ　ｖｅｒｙ　ｍｕｃｈ　ｌｉｋｅ　ｔｏ　ｇｏ　ｏｕｔ　ｆｏｒ　ａ　ｗａｌｋ　ｎｏｗ．．ｉｎ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｗｉｎｄｙ　ｗｅａｔｈｅｒ．．ｂｕｔ　ｉ　ｄｕｎ　ｗａｎｎａ　ｇｅｔ　ｗｅｔ．　Ａｎｄ　ｉ　ｄｕｎ　ｗａｎｎａ　ｓｐｏｉｌ　ｍｙ　ｐｒｅｃｉｏｕｓ　Ｒｏｍｅ－ｂｏｕｇｈｔ　ｂｒｏｌｌｙ，　ａｎｄ　Ｉ　ｄｕｎ　ｗａｎｎａ　ｄｉｒｔｙ　ｍｙ　ｎｅｗ　ｓｈｏｅｓ，　ｃｏｓ　Ｉ　ｄｕｎ　ｗａｎｎａ　ｗｅａｒ　ｍｙ　ｂｏｏｔｓ　ｃｏｓ　ｎｏｂｏｄｙ　ｗｅａｒｓ　ｂｏｏｔｓ　ｎｏｗ．．Ｂｕｔ　ｇｕｅｓｓ　Ｉ　ｗｏｕｌｄ　ｎｏｔ　ｇｏ　ｏｕｔ，　ｓｉｎｃｅ　ｉ　ｈａｄ　ｓｏ　ｍａｎｙ　＂ｄｕｎ　ｗａｎｎａｓ＂　ａｎｄ　ｉ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ｉｔｓ　ｔｉｍｅ　ｔｏ　ｓｔｕｄｙ．　Ｉ　ｗｏｋｅ　ｕｐ　ａｔ　１．３０ｐｍ　ａｎｄ　Ｉ　ｈａｖｅ　ｗａｓｔｅｄ　３ｈｏｕｒｓ　ｄｏｉｎｇ　ｐｒａｃｔｉｃａｌｌｙ　ｎｔｈ．　Ｈａｈａ．

Today's Analog Exam = Waterloo.

the sky in finland is ever so beautiful..the clouds, the colour, the sky. if only i can share the same sight with my family and frens.i think i should have taken more than 20 over fotos of the sky, thru the lil small window in my room.

i wonder who invented the word "if". somehow i think this word has made our life filled with more creativity and imagination. IF i have a million dollars..IF i can get 100 marks for all my exams..IF i can travel to the Arctic..."if only" was then used, to make us feel as if we are not tt much of a fantasizer, taking into account how small, we as individuals are. if ONLY i have a million dollars..if ONLY i can get 100 marks for all my exams..if ONLY i can travel to the Arctic...

14 more days in Finland. and i have yet to find out for myself how much it costs to cut hair over here. one day i shall check out the price at the salon downstairs. and i have yet to experience the whole 550 route. one day i shall not alight at Leppavaara and see what Itakeskus is like. maybe that very same day, i'll take a tram around Helsinki and take the rail home..

i'll miss the nice Spring weather, the beautiful sky and the freedom and independence i've had here.

disclaimer: this is not an emo post.

3rd day of hibernation! think I'm going to go crazy le. tmr i might just go out for a breather. for an ice-cream. i was wondering why Andrea said she wanted to go Alepa to get some ice-cream. I'm not an ice-cream person, but i think when u get hot-headed reading some ambiguous lecture notes, guessing if its you or the lect notes that's wrong, you really need so ICE to cool yourself down. lol.

almost everybody has ended their exams. except me. :(

i was reminded of driving again. the thot of it really sends shivers down my spine. i really hate the feeling of stress when i'm in the circuit. its bad enuf to give me consecutive nightmares.

i accidentally chanced upon KXXXXXL's blog. i saw her photos with that hateful OXXN. argh..i feel so disgusted by both of them. the gal is a horrible flirt! the way she dresses, the poses that she had..worst: she's been tgther wif her BF for 2years already. and yet she can still behave so scandalously! and the same goes for that guy.. to behave so flirtatiously with a gal who has a bf for 2 years. I shall ignore him the next time he shows up on my msn window. i dun wanna chat with a flirt. and i dun wanna to be flirted by a flirt cos I"M NO FLIRT! argh..

change, changes, changed. how do we cope with changes? (who moved my cheese?) do we reject them, or do we welcome and embrace them wif joy and anticipation? i choose the latter. :)

omg. i'm just reminded that i forgot to reply a sms that was sent to me 5h ago. how forgetful. somehow, i'm reminded of the phrase by our beloved, dramatic Mrs Wong: "HOW CONVENIENT". LOL!!! "WHAT DO YOU TAKE ME FOR?!!"-granted. hahahaha...

i rmb i wanted to blog sth last nite..but i was lazy. now i seemed to have forgotten abt the content i wanted to post. :(

the last couple of days here in Finland. 17 more days, 4 more grocery trip, 4 more papers, 1 more laundry..and I'll say goodbye to Finland for good. its amazing how time flies..it seems like a while ago when i was still cursing that stupid Nmandi for screwing up the Lapland trip. and it too was a while ago when we were submitting our application for INSTEP. and now, we were almost almost abt to leave the place.

last nite, i dreamt abt me back in Singapore and setting of for my 3-wks Europe trip on 19 May from home. LOL. what a dream.

how did i spend my wappu? meaningful i would say. slping for half a day, trying to study for a bit of the remaining and playing comp for majority of the remaining half day. ys and flc joined in the crowd in Helsinki. heard that it was crowded. haha. finally there's some civilization in this quiet lil' city.

on the other side of the globe, gy went hall exp wif the hall pple. not sure if it was due to the infrequent travelling, he was worried abt some stupid packing stuff. tsk tsk tsk. it gets on my nerves when i see guys being indecisive and un-manly.

i bought apple cider for the 2nd time. they checked my ID. all of a sudden i wondered if the legal age to buy alcohol is 18 or 21. wat if its 21? will i be jailed for buying alcohol cos i'm underaged?

exams are coming. almost all the time, i can say that exams are coming. this thurs. OMG OMG OMG. i dun wanna fail sia..but to me, its really hard. esp field and analog. and tts 2 outta 4 papers. i hope i had passed the 1st HRM paper..cos i really dun think i can manage to memorise anything much wif field paper on the same day. i seriously hate those stuff!!! u cant understand how much i hate and dislike them. i wonder if i even have the foundation there..or am i not much better off than fabian low?

there are things i ought to know, but i don't know.
those are the things i hate to know.
so i pick up my notes and force myself to know.
but i still find myself struggling to know.
the feeling of reluctance, exasperation, frustration..
how would you know?

wat an early post today. to begin my day, wif a post. lol, to signify this special day - the earliest i've ever woken up since i came to finland. i woke up at 4,30am. OMG!!! yah, apparently to attend a stupid event where i almost made myself look like a fool..in the hope of getting an almost non-existent white cap. zz.

Yesterday silverfish received 2 boxes of alcohol from her father. 2 BIG BOXES!!! she told me she only requested for 2 beers and 2 spirits to show her boyfren..HER BOYFREN..(the cheaterbug)..but she got 2 boxes, 19 bottles in all! haha..its either alcohol is really that inexpensive in her hometown or she is really damn well-off. but i thot that was rather much exaggerated. haha.

speaking of silverfish, i was so fuming mad wif her that day..apparently she didnt know 2 things: 1, how to ask permission and 2, the purpose of shampoo. she used my shampoo w/o permission. how i know? well, i've got DOG of a NOSE, so i smelled it. and the smell or i shd say the FRAGRANCE was so strong that it filled the entire bathroom and u can even smell it when she walks past u. u can imagine how much of my shampoo she used. maybe as a shower gel as well. LOL. but i shan't keep harping on it, cos i'm magnanimous and benevolent. thou shall forgive and forget.

last nite guoyuan told me that his clean laundry were found on the floor, cos some inconsiderate soul wanted to use THAT particular machine that he used..despite the many other empty machines..it seemed like he was just mere irritated, thou he had been treated the same way times and again. somehow if i were him, i wouldnt be that nice. he told me he stopped that fella's machine to seek revenge. if i were him, i might very possibly dump that fella's clothes into the big bin next to the machine. so that the fella would make a fool of himself by collecting his laundry from the dustbin instead of the washing machines.

next thurs is exam! analog somemore..wat a difficult way of starting the series of exams. i just hope that i pass those tough ones. if not life would be tougher when i go back to NTU.

today is such a slack day! lots of things to do, but nth really urgent, that's why i'm taking things rather too easily.

yesterday wilson finally talked to me online. after such a looooong time..which makes me face the fact that, everyone changes, and things change as well. those days were always the happiest.

in the past, we thought everything we do were very grown-up and we sort of enjoy them. k2..ole tampines, lyncia and i wandered around the whole premises on our own; thinking that we were old enuf to be w/o our parents. but when we realised we really couldn't find our parents, we were scared.

p6 i attended the 1st bday party. omg, i felt so "woah" at that time. come to think of it, if i were a bystander, i would actually be looking at just a bunch of naive kids, not even 1.4m tall, playing around like kids should. there's no big deal.

sec2 we were stupid enuf to believe that by waking up at 4am to queue at bedok stadium, we would be able to get the NDP tickets. did we really not know that pple would have queued overnight? why were we so foolish as to get our mothers to wake up early wif us to do some silly things?

yesterdays were always nice to look back at. we laugh at ourselves then. tomorrow, when we look back at what we did today, would too be a joke. we are growing up le!

we used to laugh at pple's names. lychee, mee hong kong, chua puay kee, reebok... i mean, we still do. those were dumb but enjoyable stuff.

would we still rmb the jokes we used to crack, the stupid things we used to do..10 yrs down the road? will we still be friends, hanging out tgther, singing k, eating sushi, doing the things we used to do when we were much much younger?

this post is not meant to be an emo post. it just serves as a reminder for myself, and all who come across this post, to treasure everyday.

the weather in Finland sure is weird and sudden..why, i thot a few days ago i was still digging for my gloves in my bag, all of a sudden its 15-18C..who needs gloves when u are in an air-con room? Haha.

this morning was HRM exam. thou i think i crapped my way through the defining concepts, i should be able to pass. somehow i doubt my brain capacity..has it shrunk? i rmb i used to be able to memorise more things more vividly. but somehow it has deteriorated. am i stupider? or was i just like before? i was scared last night when nth seemed to go into the highly folded and complex organ in the shell sitting on my neck. oh well, its over. i really hope i can pass, and i seriously think i might study less for the next round. the EE subjects are much harder to tackle.

now i'm tired. my fotos are re-uploading (sth's wrong wif the stupid drivers) and my head is in a stupid throbbing pain. I'm supposed to mop the floor, but i'm sheer lazy.
i might go sauna later. i dismissed the thot of jogging cos apparently, there isn't a proper clear route. i'm not a map person, so when Andrea took out the map and explained the route to me, i was half lost.

i checked out the price of bowling here. couldnt believe my ears - ear drum, ear canals and nerves when the person told me 20 euros per hr. crazy. absolutely! thou I'm not exactly sure how much bowling is in sg, but i'm pretty sure it doesn't require u to take out a 50 sgd note and only get back a 10 sgd change. ha!

i was kinda surprised at the mention of felicia's name this morning. it might have crossed my mind that she's taking the same subject too, but the thot seemed to be a mere passer-by. i'm not an independent person. so why didn't i make good use of the luxury and privilege of having a fellow sgrean fren staying just 1 floor beneath me? we could have done a lot of things tgther..cooking, eating, slacking, hanging out, sauna-ing, going to sch...if the person is ys, or gg1 or BLM or anyone else, it might have been a different case, wouldn't it be?

there's a flea market in the vicinity. cool! its good to see that there's civilisation in the quiet espoo city. the numbers seemed friendly, but after doing the maths, they didn't seem to be as nice moments ago. i couldn't resist the urge to bye the eggplant sold in Lid'l. its so cute and nice, and perfect. i didn't really know how to cook it, luckily, my mum enlightened me. LOL.

i cant help reflect the housework and menial tasks i have done since i came here, and i think i should compliment myself. never would i have thot that there's such a day when i have to do everything by myself. its not a lot, but its just so not-of-me. haha. but when I'm back in sg, I'm me again. haha. i look forward to that day.

Back from Easter holiday last week.

Next Sat is HRM exam.

Sucks. I feel like I'm a book worm, having to read and study and MEMORIZE the whole textbook. No doubt memorizing does make studying less..um..stressful, but which kid in town likes to study? If only i could play whole day long, sleep day and night...

Last night I had an almost-nightmare. I dreamt of me driving up an almost vertical slope. Naturally i had no faith in making my way up, and i was right when the car flipped and crashed towards the direction of gravity. I knew I should have gotten my sis to drive the car, but then she was at the backseat. It was impossible for her to control anything at that point in time. Instantaneously, all in the car (my parents and my 2nd sis) lost consciousness and i couldn't, at all, make them come around.

Miraculously, I was back at home the next instant and my mum was happily cooking in the kitchen. she even told me that my dad and 2nd sis were fine and still alive..and the unconscious persons in the car were just the physical bodies. I was a bit lost, but somehow I believed what she said since she was a living example. LOL

Boohoo..changes after changes. All is finally confirmed as we have paid the money. *OUCH!* Its gonna burn a hole in the pocket temporarily..but i hope everything would be worth the burn.

Haha. Planning 1 trip to 1 place is ok. But planning a trip to many different places is not easy, especially when we have to accommodate to the plane schedule and the money issue. Nevertheless, a compromise has been made and here are the most updated details:

18may Helsinki-Tallinn
20may Tallinn-Riga
22may Riga-Berlin
24May Berlin-Hamburg
26may Hamburg-Pisa
28may Pisa-Seville
30may Seville-Dublin
01jun Dublin-Glasgow
04jun Edinburgh-Zurich
09jun Geneva-Frankfurt
11jun Frankfurt-Singapore


We have sort of decided to ship our big luggage back to sg first so as to avoid the inconvenience of carrying it with us, or to save the costs of checking in or to leave it at FRA. Thanks to guoyuan for his idea. Thou the thought of 185 euros to do the shipping sounds quite *woah*, but the other alternatives were even "woah-er*. LOL

Frankly speaking, I'm not sure what kinda long holiday awaits us. It sounds luxurious, but its really abt roughing it out. How much luxury can 2 gals afford? But at least, we are off from a ~ 20kg load. And one thing's for sure, I'll not crave for any plane rides in the near future.

Friday is our Easter vacation to Oslo and Stockholm. Not sure if its gonna be a fun-filled trip as the itinerary seems rather European. Oh well, its the company and the experience that matters. No heavy luggage! No more bedbugs! OFF! I hope that the stupid bedbug bites wont leave a permanent scar on my hands. I have had enuf souvenirs.

I look forward to the day of return 65 days later.

Happy 200th post! I wonder whats there to be happie abt.

Anyway, the plan has finally been laid. At least almost confirmed, minus the booking.

20/05 Helsinki-Tallinn
23/05 Tallinn-Riga
26/05 Riga-Glasgow
30/05 Edinburgh/Glasgow-Dublin
02/06 Dublin-Prague
05/06 Prague-Zurich
08/06 Zurich-Dusseldorf
11/06 Frankfurt-SINGAPORE!!!

All these for less than 200Euros (400SGD)..this excludes the final flight and the accommodation thou.
Hopefully exams will end on 14May, which makes me just ~1mth away from the day of freedom!

This afternoon, Andrea asked if I look forward to the day I leave Finland. Naturally my answer was "yes". Why...isn't that the expected answer? Haha.

Just finished watching "Hotel for Dogs". A typical kinda movie I would have watched in the cinema back in sg. It brought back many wonderful memories. The question now is, so have I made up my mind?

its the last few days of march and its still snowing..will spring ever come? the shops selling impractical clothes now, because its not possible for customers to wear those summer clothes that they are selling, NOW!

so many things to do

lab prelim and actual ex
electrical eng. project
applied field ex
analog ex
modeling test on Thurs
hundreds of strategy, finance and leadership terms to memorise

so many things on my mind

worrying abt failing the courses here
worrying abt the driving lessons schedule
worrying abt letting go or not
worrying abt whether qifen is still going to stay in hall
worrying abt why i'm having panda eyes when i've slept for 12hours

if i am a magician, i will conjure some magic tricks that will bring me back to Singapore, with all the credits in my transcripts, with all the worries solved and gone forever and ever and ever and ever.....

today is a day when everything doesnt seem to happen logically.

1200 i touched the hot oven and burnt my hand
1300 i played hasee bounce in the hope of getting 1000..but i got 944 and 962 instead
1900 a silverfish appeared on the floor in my room
1955 my roommate and her imagined-bf were in the house
2000 the 2 of them were missing
my other roomie asked if i wanted to eat their leftover mashed potato
blood oozed out of my cooked chicken drumstick
2100 the 2 of them reappeared. sitting in the kitchen in the dark.

How true about me is this personality test?
(http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx)

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Today i received the parcel that 1st sis sent. I was happy and moved. The parcel contained 2 cute Zara t-shirts and a pair of earrings. I think it cost her at least S$60 in all. Its not just the money she spent on me...its really the thought that counts. I'm so fortunate.

Just when i thot its gonna to stop snowing, it snowed again. -.-"
i also dun undstd why i dislike the snow so much. Its not sth that I get to see everyday in Singapore. Its also not the main reason why i fell. BUT i just dun like it LOR. haha.

i realise that our singlish is really sth that we undstd. a few times, i accidentally blurted out "lah" and "lor" in front of my foreign roomies. they weren't stunned at the use of the words, but it just seemed that the dynamics of the sentence and the intended meaning wasnt conveyed across. but we didnt care anyway.

i had a weird dream last night. it was split into 3 main parts. 1st i dreamt of sze jie. Of so many pple, i dreamt of him. maybe becos Mr Pang and I were discussing the senr camp top and we mentioned him. but that was the day before. Haha. anyway i dreamt of this weird notebook (those you write on) that was almost like a pdf. i rmb logging in to neopets using his notebook. so funny. i dreamt that i was in a cottage with him, and one of the beds in the bathroom had exactly the same bedsheet and blanket that i'm using right now. LOL. why would there be a bed in a bathroom. Haha.

the 2nd part was kangting's wedding. i dunno who she was getting married to, but it was supposed to be her wedding at MarinaMandarin hotel. Somehow Gilian was there too. Haha. Anyway, we met at the basement of rafflescity and we wanted to get into a lift so that we can get to the MRT station. but somehow some of our ex-classmates like XQK and Doreen are stopping us from getting into the lift and stopping the lift door from closing. it seems as if they are stopping me and zj from attending the wedding. Mr and Mrs Wong were there too. we were late and there was no way we could stop the gang from stopping the lift. we finally gave up and decided to take a cab. but no matter how hard i tried to call for one, there was still no cab. in the end, a white cab stopped and picked us, after he has let a group of Pakistan pple got down. Weird thing is it was me, and my parents who boarded the cab. it was no longer my classmates.

ying ying was angry wif me cos i let her wait for me in the fitting room. i told her i would fetch a gown for her. but the gown was not there when i went to get it. and it was too far and too late for me to go back and let ying ying know. i even told kangting abt it and she used a loudhailer to shout for ying ying's name. but apparently she didnt hear, so she was mad at me.

the 3rd part i dreamt of going back to hall and home since there's a one week break. i saw my room (hall) has turned into qifen's chem lab and she was doing her expts there. the rest of the stuff i cant rmb le.

haha.

Tapiola

Today i went to Tapiola. a normal place, with shops, supermarkets, banks, H&M, etc. Somehow the place gave me a very unique kinda feeling. I dun really know how to describe it. the place...its like some European kinda street, wif someone playing the accordion, wif pple sitting in the cafe, wif the elderly at the banks and doing their groceries shopping...its somewhat like peaceful ville where life is carefree and happie.

Indeed Tapiola is a nice place, with the last yellow piggy keychain to add to my collection and the long-time-no-see Namimunnki. Its really nice. Reminds me of Lapland. And for the dunno-how-many-time-th, being mistaken for a Japanese. In what ways do I look like one huh???! Haha.

I'm staying at a fantastic place. 6th floor is probably the highest in my area, tts why I can see the clear blue sky whenever i look out of my window. maybe its near the airport, i see lots of planes. cool! i saw 2 planes one in front of the other, somewhat a 200m from each other. Pardon my parallax error. but how big can a window be? if u can see 2 planes at one time from a small window, they shd be quite close to each other. maybe i shd time the no. of planes i see from my window in 1 minute...I bet i can easily see 10 or more.

and the sky here is reallie beautiful. esp its sunset now. so u see the different colours forming. wow~.

i hope i get to go Paris in March to look for 2nd sis. haha.

How truthful can pple be? You think you are part of them, but do they really see you as part of them? You feel happy because they are with you, but do they feel happy because you are with them?

They just belong to a different school. That doesn't mean that they are bad, and we are good. Maybe they are really nice, just that, yah, they go to a different school. I also dunno.

Maybe I'm just stereotyping. Maybe I'm holding the binoculars in the opposite way. But its worth thinking about that. Hmm...

I'm going crazy. I hate marketing. All along I thot I'm much better at such stuff than EE stuff, but it seems like I'm wrong. Stupid Aker Yards/STX. How on Earth would I know how to do the assignment? Why, I dun even have the reqd book! Sucks. I should wake up from my dream. There's a reason why Business didnt appear in my list of uni choices.

Just now I played Chicago with my roomies. Not exactly the best game, but at least it took my mind off the work I had to do. And I hated that cos I literally did nth productive today. I hate myself. At this point in time, I'm still dating Aker Yards. Argh!

Weird dreams

I have been having such weird dreams these days.

Last night, I dreamt of food. Actually the dreams didn't make sense and it seems vague and messy to me now. All I knew was a dream about some cheap food being sold at this street. Every time I visit the street, it seems that there is one kind of food that is particularly cheaper than the street opposite. And in my dream, I visited the same street abt >5 times and the same exact sale happened during every visit.

Just now, I took a very long nap. Some 3.5hours. I dreamt of some tribes. But it turned out that the tribes were my family members and my ex-colleagues. I can't really rmb the details now. But I do rmb some issues with my parents, some strikes along the streets of Singapore and I was there with my hp camera as Priscilla was holding on to my camera, and some parts where I was looking for a toilet and I finally found it some streets away at a deserted MRT station.
Come to think of it, the dream seems rather queer.

Falling is painful! The stupid ice on the ground made me fall for the 2nd time in Espoo. I seriously hate the ice and snow. I can't wait for the weather to be much better.

Like I said, falling is painful. At that moment, I felt as if i was going to faint. My eyes blurred, my wrist and butt hurt.

"Its not abt falling, its abt getting up from the fall."
Fine then. I was really surprised that no help was attempted to be rendered by the so many pple near me. Nobody bothered to come and ask if you are ok. Both times. And I belv it would be the same case were to happen if there are going to be subsequent times. Maybe it was too common for them to see pple falling. Finland is cold, no doubt abt that. Are the that pple cold too?

"If you have to fall, you have to know how to fall."
Apparently i didnt know. I didnt even know what went wrong, and the next moment I landed hard on the seemingly innocent-looking snowy ground. Somehow my wrist hit the ground hard and it got injured somehow. Maybe it was a sprain, a fracture or just a strain. I dunno. All I know is that-it hurts.

Every morning, I wake up, hoping that the snow would melt away. For good. When will that day come?

Haha. I'm back from my Lapland Trip. Actually quite some time ago le. But anyway, the trip was cui cos the organiser was very cui. I can't believe the worst happened - we missed the last train home. We shd have gotten back by 1am the latest, but we ended up back 6h later. ZZZ. Luckily there was the express bus, we didn't have to sit at the train station and wait for the whole while.

Anyway, it wasn't as cold as expected. There was starry sky (uncountable stars), but no northern lights. Skiing was shiok without falling. I fell like 4 or 5 times? I can't rmb. Almost dislocated my right arm, but it miraculously found its joint and went back to its original location. Phew! I can't believe as a first-timer, I actually took the ski-lift all the way up the hill. I didnt dare to come down! Hee...my savior was a snow-mobile. The cottage where we stayed in was well-equipped and cosy! It even had its own sauna. And 6 of us built a BIG snowman right outside our cottage. Haha.

Now that I'm back, it means back to school work. Lab is hard. 3003 is harder. DIP is hardest. Dun undstd what on Earth the materials are writing abt. GG! I better not fail anything...if not I'd have to go thru everything all over again in NTU. The only nice module is 3010. Haha.

Next trip: Easter Vacation to Sweden and Norway wif YS and 2 other NUS guys from China whom I've met during the Lapland trip. :)

Its cold here. I'm referring to not just the weather, but the festive mood too. For the 1st time I'm spending CNY at such a far place from home. Oh well, maybe its just not the right time to go for SEP. But since I'm here, then that's too bad.

CNY celebration at Helsinki...CUI. Some performances and fireworks. But still, better than nth. I spent CNY Day 1 and Day 2 in my room, with my lecture notes and my laptop.

Do I feel sad? Actually no. I just took it as any normal day. But of cos, it would have been much better if I'm at home. At least I'd have better food.

I feel like I'm a part-time housewife. All the while, its either eating out or mummy's cooking. I never had to worry abt my own meals. Not that I'm worrying now, but its just that you will feel sian having to cook your own dinner. EVERY SINGLE NIGHT. Eating out is so ex. This is Europe. Also, my stock in the fridge is running low. Its time to be Maria tmr and stock up my compartment in the fridge. I'm left with nth nutritious except eggs and cheese.

Lapland trip on Thurs. Somehow I reallie dun feel like going. The thought of -25 to -15 degrees Celsius really sends shiver down my body. They say northern lights is beautiful and everyone's is so excited. But I'm not. I mean yah, I want to see the northern lights. But i rather stay in somewhere warm. -25 degree Celsius. Its worse than a freezer. Somemore we have to make our own trip to Tampere. Where on Earth is that sia? The train tickets there are so ex! and we have already paid like 200plus euros for the whole trip of which you spend majority of the time traveling. I feel so cheated.

Zz. Enough of complaints. Have to cook my dinner now. tata.

Highlights of the day

The 3 of us stepped into a sauna. OMG! It was so hot, and we could barely breathe thru our noses. We stayed there for some 20min which seemed like an hour, and we just couldnt take it. Felicia said sauna is good for the body...and according to the internet (http://www.goaskalice.columbia.edu/0353.html) , it seems to be true:

• "your metabolism and pulse rates increase, your blood vessels become much more flexible, and your extremities benefit from increased circulation"
• "brings about the same metabolic results as physical exercise"
• "relieves the symptoms of minor illnesses such as colds, revives the muscles after tough physical exertion, and clears the complexion"
• "senses will be sharpened, and your tactile sensitivity heightened"

Oh yeah. So good, i shd just visit it more often since its free and just steps away from my apartment.

We cooked dinner after that.

I used the washing machines and dryers. I almost gave up meddling with the dryer. I couldnt find the start button, neither could I understand the markings on the machine. LOL. And I almost thot one of the machines ate up my right glove. Haha...

Sports sports sports...

Whats so fantastic about sports?
Whats so nice about being in the sun, getting yourself tanned like someone of another race?
I dun undstd.

I do what I like. Just as long as it keeps me fit and healthy and keeps my heart pumping at a normal rate.
I do sports for myself, not for the sake of others.
You don't need to join softball, captain's ball, netball, basketball, football, hockey or play with anything round just to qualify as a sports-player.
All the more you don't need to show the whole world of the 101 photos of you playing sports.
Can't you just swim and jog and play badminton when you feel like it?

I just dun undstd. Hmm....

Happie New Year!

The 1st post on the 1st day of the new year. New year resolutions? Erm...i think i'm too old for that. Things like: I will work hard this year. I will be good this year. I will keep my room neat and tidy this year....blah blah blah. Its either i've been doing it all the time or the otherwise. Nth fantastic.

I'm flying off soon! Its this Wed. I can't believe its that soon. I'm almost packed...such heavy luggage and all I have is a pair of hands...i'm not afraid of anything...except for the cock-ups that might have here and there. But i do feel quite sian at the thought of doing everything myself. EVERYTHING! I've been through hall, and I'm certified 50% independent. But now...its 100% independence. But i'm sure I can pull through. No big deal right?

I've just installed Skype. I'm looking forward to the pc-to-pc calls that I can make. I hope the Bu Liu Mings or at least GG#01 will install...its damn sian half a year not hearing them. I hope 2nd sis will be at home with her laptop on when mine is on...so that I can hear their voices.

Its weird. I'm not excited. I'm a bit sad...5 months to be exact...its not considered long, but still its not like 5 days. No home to go back to every weekend. No bed. No gou gou. Haha.

I hope there's nth wrong with the modules matching over there. I hope to match as many subjects as possible leh...

Tmr...the Bu Liu Mings are gonna go Sakura for dinner. Whee... must work out a strategy to eat the money back. Haha...